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Nervous. AGAIN.
Waahh. Next job/internship starts next week! And I have a 'meeting' tomorrow! Waaahh. Also, instead of with three 'counsellors' we're with two now. Oh crap which means the preparations need some editing. Also, I have never met those people before! Oh crapcrapcrap. I hope it goes better than last internship social-wise. I'm prety sure I'll be fine with the kids, since it went okay last time. But I hope the people who work there will be nicer. x--x. Or atleast try to talk to me. Maybe I should try to talk to them. But um HOW? I can't just come inbetween a conversation and go all OMG HI I'M NEW HERE TALK TO ME PLEASE? So um. Nervous.
Nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous nervous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on 01 Aug 2009 by Daisy , 2 Comment(s)
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Sweet Sixteen
Yayness! My birthday :3 ~ So happy about that too. I didn't end up spending it alone ~ Instead of two, four of my friends ended up coming so I went all YAY. We made hamburgers. We made garlic bread. We played big brain academy and the sims 3. And a board game. And we watched the Little Mermaid (um lol?) And lolled at old pictures of people we know.
Happy times. Also got awesome presents lol. Including a cute plush fluff adorable turtle. I do love turtles <3 I hung it around my neck lol which is a hilarious sight. I also got a bracelet with lots of charms. And I got some more charms. And I put them all on the bracelet <3. And a necklace. And a candle. And a breakfast bowl. And a champagne glass (sixteen is when you can officially drink alcohol so um yeah. Though I don't like champagne. Or beer. Or wine. Still, it's symbolical.)
So we have a happy Daisy who doesn't feel all that antisocial anymore <3
Posted on 29 Jul 2009 by Daisy , 27 Comment(s)
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Belonging somewhere.
EDIT: Happy happy, since I might not end up celebrating my sixteenth birthday ENTIRELY alone. Yay for newborn babies who make sure their teenage aunts do not want to go on vacation because baby needs lots of attenshun etc.etc so the teenage aunt can come visit her nearly-sixteen-year-old-lifeless-friend. Plus, the baby is adorable <3.
EDIT IN THE EDIT Also, yay for moved dentist appointments. And last-minute returns from vacations. And early-ending german classes. Wooh!
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I don't. Belong anywhere that is. Well not that I know of anyway. It explains me sitting at home for the past four days. In front of my laptop. Which isn't making me very happy.
Lack of social life is depressing. I also have a cold.
My three closest friends are on vacation and I haven't heard from them for quite a while. Except for one. Who is coming back tomorrow. Who wants to go to awesome festivals. Which I am not allowed to go to unless we are with five people. Yeah. Good luck finding three more available people.
The other few friends I have are all like very busy. They happen to have a life that seems to not include me. Um. Can't blame them for that.
Still. It's not like I'd feel like I'd belong entirely with them anyway. Because I never hung out with them much during the schoolyear. Because a CERTAIN PERSON OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS THINKS WE ARE THE ELITE FOUR. Sigh.
So. Lifeless. sitting here in front of the computer. Feeling stupid. Because EVERYONE who goes on that awesome course I followed had an amazing time and made a million of new friends. I didn't. Because I am shy like that and one week isn't enough for me. I worked for one week last week. EVERYONE knew eachother and was great friends. Except for me. The outcast. AGAIN.
Sometimes it feels like everyone belongs in atleast one group of friends. Except for me. I'm just stuck between individuals. Am pretty much always second choice. And am currently lifeless.
Talk to me, people. Lifeless almost-sixteen-yearold sitting in front of her laptop here.
Which reminds me. NOBODY is free on the day of my birthday. Thanks for keeping it free, people. Thank you so much. Its not like I wanted to have a party or anything - I never do - but atleast I would've liked to celebrate it NOT ALONE. That's going to be an awesome sixteenth birthday.
If ANYONE even reads this pathetic wallowing in self-depression. Oh screw this, I need to snap out of it. TIME FOR FANGIRLING OVER NICHOLAS TEO'S NEW ALBUM.
Posted on 21 Jul 2009 by Daisy , 35 Comment(s)
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